Category: Narrative of Life

Depression

It’s late at night. Or, perhaps, it’s very early in the morning. It’s dark outside. It’s dark inside. It’s raining. I am sitting on my back porch, listening to the raindrops around me. They’re not merely raindrops; they are like the ones which make huge…

Ready Player One

My generation grew up playing “Super Mario Bros.”(Bros, not brothers, although it’s read “brothers,” it’s spelled “Bros.”) If I ever make it to Heaven (which is still 50/50 at this point), I’m going to ask God how many hours of my life were spent…

What Happened?

“I wanted to do good. What betrayed me? My mind? My heart?” -Al Pacino The Godfather: Part III As I type these words, I have no idea where I’m going with this, so you may just have to bear with me. All I know…

For the Record

For the record, I am not trying to be the “good guy.” I’m not trying to be some sort of great person doing a great thing — nothing of the sort. I know what kind of person I am (or was) and I know…

The Sound of Silence

When I was 18 years old, I was raped. In a vulnerable moment of pseudo-consciousness and inebriated confusion, a “friend” of mine — a male “friend” — sexually violated me in a manner that changed my life, forever. In the news recently, there has…

Burden of Proof

In all honesty, the contemporary social climate has made it somewhat dangerous to be a high school teacher. And although I still believe it to be one of the noblest professions, the recent trend of accusing high-profile members of society (such as actors and…

On This Day…

There are dates we all remember as significant parts of our lives: wedding anniversaries, births of children, deaths of loved ones, etc. And for me, in addition to these, there are three unique dates I will never forget: March 9th, November 2nd, and December…

Too Much Guilt

Sometimes the guilt I carry regarding my past is just too much. It’s one thing to regret my past, but the amount of guilt I carry is often debilitating — the cheating, the humiliation, the manipulation, and the pain I caused. I still see…

Change the World

Thursday—6:03 AM (CDT): On the Tarmac I literally made my flight with 40 seconds to spare (thanks to the long TSA line.) And now I’m sitting in the best row of coach — that first row behind First Class, the row with the extra leg…

I Never Wonder

I will be forever grateful for the way my wife has sacrificed so much for me, has forgiven so much of me, and continues to give so much to me. Over the years, she has withstood more than any wife should, but she has…

The Delusion of Hope

“Hope. It is the quintessential human delusion, simultaneously the source of your greatest strength, and your greatest weakness.” —The Matrix Reloaded   It’s actually quite easy to completely give up hope. I should know. In March of 2012, I did it — twice. Twice in…

I Am a Rock

I love those days when a song randomly cycles through my iTunes shuffle — a song which perfectly encapsulates the fleeting thoughts rushing through my mind. It’s happened to us all: a song on the radio, a song on a television show, a song…

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